i've been feeling a bit out of the ordinary lately.
like nothing's going right.
then i feel bad cause i don't appreciate how many things are good in my life.
sometimes i wonder if i even deserve you (do i?)
and sometimes i wonder if i'm taking you for granted

and if i think its not what i want, that when its over, i'll realize it was what i wanted.

but i'm just one big ball of confusing. i have no idea about anything in my life at this point in time.
oy vey.