paper journal is ruling my life currently, and has been for the past two months. sorry almost nonexistent blog world!

see if you can pick out which parts i'm feeling, lately.

"Same Girl"

If you could read my mind
You'd say baby you're right
And I don't wanna fight anymore
You're usually righter than I am
And I'm not a very good fighter
Am I, well neither are you

So let's be through with this one
Cause some things never change
I know you're still my same girl
Who builds her own frames
For the pictures that she paints
The lights of Monterey
Come in across the bay
Right back to my same girl
Uhmmm hmmm hmmmm
Uhmmm hmmmm hmmmmm hmm
How can you be so calm when the truth is sometimes
Living in the eye of the storm
With everything going on around us
I feel comfort in the sounds when you say
It will be OK
Like a star that's immune to the light of the day
Told dreams it could follow me
But not with my same girl
Who builds her own frames
For the pictures she paints
The lights of Monterey
Come in across the bay
Right back to my same girl

ALSO

I should be reminded not to eat puppy chow on my black futon. okay?!?




all she wants to do is dance daaaaance

I think it's time for a reinvention. and a haircut. definitely a haircut.

i'm trying my best to rediscover myself and fight this depression and kick it to the curb!

so nostalgic for last summer. i know i was this exact same way last year, missing the summer before.
i really hope this one is a good one. really really really hope.

my lip gloss is cool my lipgloss be poppin'
is currently blasting on my ihome. weee.

kind of hoping i'll just dwindle away

into nothingness.

note to self:

Good Morning, Sarah (at 11:22 am...),

Please stop sitting around in your underwear/oversized t shirt and do some real work.
OKAY?

Sincerely,
Self

i've been feeling a bit out of the ordinary lately.
like nothing's going right.
then i feel bad cause i don't appreciate how many things are good in my life.
sometimes i wonder if i even deserve you (do i?)
and sometimes i wonder if i'm taking you for granted

and if i think its not what i want, that when its over, i'll realize it was what i wanted.

but i'm just one big ball of confusing. i have no idea about anything in my life at this point in time.
oy vey.

watching that documentary about aneorexia in political science yesterday made me feel like maybe it's a good idea. which is actually a terrible thing to say out loud.

all i've eaten today was a few grapes and a multigrain bagel.
after a while i just stopped feeling hungry.

meh. indifference.

sad but true.

i don't make decisions.
decisions make me.

chicago this summer = free housing, $1800 bucks, a research assistantship, and taking HON 207.
and maybe even an ice cream cart and bicycle combo. we'll see.